Looking For Treasure

When I was young I was a treasure hunter. I would look for treasure, inside the pages of books. I would scan the pages for nuggets, jewels and pearls. Weightless treasure, treasure no one could take away. If I found a nugget, that made my day. On those days, I knew I was growing.

Some books were like treasure chests, there was gold on every page. Those were the best books in the world. Other times I would need to turn many pages and scan many chapters, to find something that was lasting.

Ideas that can withstand the test of time, ideas that are sustainable. Those are the nuggets. Ideas that would apply to any people at any time. When I found an idea that was lasting, I was in heaven.  An lasting idea is like a torch of light that will burn forever and illuminate generations.

I grew up absorbing knowledge from my extended family, grandparents, parents, uncles, aunts, friends. So I knew that every person has something of value to offer, every last one.

I realized that if I can read books written by my elders I could learn from their life experience, and prepare myself. I could gain a life’s experience without having to endure it or use up any of my time. It was crazy, I could learn from someone that’s long passed. It was an awesome discovery.

Every person has flaws. When you read a book, take the good and throw away the bad. Its just like eating a juicy apple that has a bad spot, you eat around it and throw away the rest.

In my teens, I discovered Khalil Gibran, a fountain of wealth. I read many books by different people and each one brought more light to my world. I knew then, that I owed it to myself to search more, everywhere. And I keep looking for treasure.

Amazing Dream

Looking thru a box of my stuff, I found this amazing dream I had written down on a sketchpad that I kept along my bedside. If you  dream regularly, I suggest you put a pad and a pencil on your bedside to write your dreams as soon as you awake.  Many times I would wake up in the middle of the night and write down my dreams. This is one on them. I had forgotten about this dream and I am so glad I wrote it down. As I read it all the images came back to me. The following is as I wrote it, except for a few punctuation changes.

8-6-12  /  1:00    (at one o’clock I wrote an outline of my dream so as not to forget)

Alone

Desert Sand

Rock

Snake

Rabbit (Hare) Bushtail Covered in Dust

Child

Woman

Man

Murder

And then 8-6-12 / 1:23 (at one twenty three I wrote the following)

I was alone. There was nothing but sand, and then I noticed this beautiful rock. I was fixated, it had a sheen. From beneath the rock came a gliding snake wearing a cardigan, … nah-for real,

and then, I saw this dusty hare, his pink eyes inquired, did I care? Before you knew it, I heard a child cry. A barefooted toddler of olive skin, he mumbled something and gave me a big grin.

I knew I had to rescue this child. There was a woman laying across a dead tree. I shook my head, this could not be. My mind it raced, it was full of sin. I thanked the Lord, I just might win. My face it glowed, a foolish grin.

I licked my lips and pulled back my shoulder and that was when I saw, the man. Immediately, I had a plan. I set him up to come over and then I will hit him with a boulder.

I hit him hard across the head. I hit him until he was dead.

And then, like that, “snap”, it was all gone and there I stood (again) alone in the roasting sand, wishing that it wasn’t true, hoping I would run into you.

I must accept that this is true.

Hold Somebody’s Hand

I want to tell you about a magical experience I had. It came to me in a dream.

It was dark.

I was a point in space. I was not a person, I was an awareness. I was way out there, in the dark, star-filled, universe, floating in a slow orbit. There was no planet earth. I was floating engulfed by the planets and the stars. Imagine, it was night, and from where you were, the stars were above, below, and, in every direction. That is how it felt, there was no ground.

I was suspended and gliding, alone in the universe, yet I felt like everybody was with me. It was a vast expanse, everything seemed fixed, in perpetual slow-motion. I felt privileged to be riding this wondrous carousel.  A wicked chill was in the air, a continuous, ravaging wind, had produce a galactic whistling. It was like an open air concerto, an audio and visual delight.  I did not have a face but, I could feel the chill in the breeze. I was not afraid, there was nothing to be afraid of.  I must have been in orbit, forever, and then, it happened.

At a distance, east of my center, I saw a movement. Far, amidst the distant stars, there was something, coming in my direction.  I was transfixed on this unidentified flying object, until I finally recognized it. It was an undulating flying blanket. I was surprised. Like, no way, a flying blanket?  Flying blankets are not real. It was moving, the way a stingray moves in the water, occasionally illuminated by the distant stars. It was riding an air stream and slowly approached, the way a space ship would approach in space movies, finally becoming massive as it passes over.

It was a flying blanket, a sight I wish, you could all see. I wish you were there with me. The threads in the blanket were of every color.  It looked like a quilt grandma would make, with different pieces of cloth. It was large enough to cover the entire milky way. As it approached closer, I could notice that this immense, colorful blanket had dangling threads. For the most part, it was fine, but in some parts of the blanket, there were holes.  At the holes, the threads were falling apart and barely hanging on.  Yet, it was beautiful, in spite of the sporadic tears in the fabric.

And then, I was blown away when I noticed that he blanket was made of people.  It was everybody, it was all of us, every last one. It was every woman and every man. There was no one that has ever lived, that was not there. Some were dressed in their work clothes. Others with their traditional costumes. I saw a lot of service people. Most were just regular folks. It was the biggest blanket, I have ever seen and it was on the move.  The threads in the blanket were made of human beings. The blanket was held together by people holding hands. Where the holes were, for some reason, the people had let go of each other. Where the blanket was strong, the people were holding on to each other.

Then, as in a flash, I saw the people in the blanket as positive and negative symbols. There it was, it was mathematical. Those holding hands, with their arms outstretched looked like the positive symbol. Those that refused to hold hands, with their arms down, looked like the negative sign, and the dangling threads were people barely hanging on. The symbolism was awesome. It was simple.

It slowly passed over me and I felt infinitesimal.  I was humbled and at that moment, I felt like I was looking at God.

So, I say, no matter what, no matter how discouraged you feel, don’t let go,

hold somebody’s hand.